I am not a normal person， at least from the psychological state I am not perfect. I don't know what my value is. Maybe many people don't know， but I only know that what I want to do is not let more people become like me， who look normal and have mental disabilities.All the time， what I have faced since childhood is disguise. I have to pretend at school， at home and outside. It seems that I am normal， but I am not.I don't know what other people's lives are like， but for a long time， I have chosen a body that is not my own. I will not feel backed up because I have a home， nor will I have the courage to accept failure. From small to large， we will receive more negatives than affirmations， and we will not be applauded because we have more expertise than others， but we must pay for small mistakes.Since I was young， I should know that what I want can only be obtained by myself. If I rely on others， I will think that I don't know what is worth. I can't resist what others put on me. Although it's not bloody， I often face people's hearts. No one will tolerate my sentence because I am not used to it， even including eating and taking bowls.When you grow up， you must obey the arrangement. The road of life has been paved for you! Escort with experience， bind the splint with morality， in the final analysis， for your future， and ask: What do you take for the future?I don't know， nor do I dare to wonder whether the next generation will be in the same situation as me in this life situation. I do not want to harm a person who has nothing to do with himself， nor do I want to destroy a person's life to accompany him.Now I only know， I don't know from which moment， the things given at home can only be used to protect bowls， and it is a sin to use them in excess. At that moment， my face was covered with an invisible mask. No one could know what I was thinking， and no one could understand what I was thinkingI don't want to be Guo Chenguang， because this identity is really tired to live; I don't want to be a Guocheng either. I'm really lonely on my way alone.This is my last letter in this world. I don't know when it will work. One day， someone will understand the meaning of its existence.To those who think they are right， to those who struggle.

　　我不是一個(gè)正常人，至少?gòu)男睦頎顟B(tài)我是不完善的。我也不知道我的價(jià)值是什么，也許很多人也不知道，但是我只知道我想做的是不讓更多的人變成我這樣的，看起來(lái)正常，心理殘缺的人。

　　一直以來(lái)，我從小面對(duì)的都是偽裝，在學(xué)校得裝、在家里得裝、在外面為人處世得裝。讓人看起來(lái)我很正常，但其實(shí)我很不正常。

　　我不知道別人的生活是怎樣的，但我長(zhǎng)久以來(lái)，都選擇了一條不是自己的軀殼活著。我不會(huì)因?yàn)橛屑叶械接泻蠖苷陲L(fēng)擋雨，也沒(méi)有勇氣接受失敗。從小到大收到的否定要比肯定更多，也不會(huì)因?yàn)橛谐鰟e人的特長(zhǎng)有人喝彩，但必須為小小的失誤買(mǎi)單。

　　從小我就要知道我想要的只能自己獲取，依靠別人，會(huì)認(rèn)為不懂物有所值。別人塞給我的無(wú)法抗拒，雖不至于腥風(fēng)血雨，卻也常常直面人心。沒(méi)有人會(huì)因?yàn)槲业囊痪洳涣?xí)慣而容忍，甚至于包括吃飯拿碗。

　　長(zhǎng)大后一定服從安排，人生的路已經(jīng)為你鋪排！用經(jīng)驗(yàn)保駕護(hù)航，用道德捆綁夾板，說(shuō)到底為你未來(lái)，呼問(wèn)：你拿什么為未來(lái)摸排？

　　我不知道，我也不敢想在這樣的人生境遇下，下一代的人生會(huì)不會(huì)走上和我一樣的境遇。我不想害一個(gè)于己無(wú)關(guān)的人，也不想再毀掉一個(gè)人的人生來(lái)作陪。

　　如今的我只知道，不知道從哪一刻開(kāi)始，家里給的東西只能拿來(lái)護(hù)碗，用在超出的地方便是罪。而那一刻開(kāi)始，我的臉上便遮上了看不見(jiàn)的面具，沒(méi)有人能知道我想什么，也沒(méi)有人能明白想什么……

　　我不想做郭晨光，因?yàn)檫@個(gè)身份真的活著很累；我也不想做郭城，一個(gè)人的路上真的孤立無(wú)援。

　　互相這就是我留在這個(gè)世界上的一份遺書(shū)，不知道什么時(shí)候奏效，互相有一天，會(huì)有人能明白它存在的意義。

　　寫(xiě)給那些自以為是的人，寫(xiě)給那些苦苦掙扎的人。